scarred

Eighth grade will stay with me forever.
I tried things with Matt a few weeks ago.
I had a mental breakdown.

I started shaking and within 15 seconds I was bawling.
He was understanding though. It was so hard to explain to him why I felt the way I did. But I cried for about 45 minutes.
Will I always be this way?

love

I think there's a big difference between loving someone and being in love with someone.

It's clear to me the difference between the two.
When you love someone, they mean a lot to you. You care about them so much that you need them. They are a source of joy. Losing them would be so painful.

I don't think I've ever been in love, but I know a bit of what it's like from what I've heard. You'd do anything to be with them. When you're with them, its like you're flying but your feet are still on the ground.

I'm not in love with him.
I think I'm living a lie, and I can't do it any more.

mtm

My cruise was a ton of fun.
Me and Jamal were kind of secretly dating all of spring break, although I was gone for most of it..
I don't count it though, it never felt too real.
Anyways he left me again for Megan.

This kid Matt apparently used to be married to me in his fantasy world, and last sunday he tweet messaged me and told me I always looked really sad, and that I was unbelievably pretty and deserved to be happy. Basically, he asked me to be his girlfriend friday night at the soccer game. We went to see the lucky one last night. I really like him.

OHHH

Tomorrow night I'm going to see the hunger games premiere, and Baylie's coming this weekend. :)))))))))))))))