Yesterday was my dad's birthday.
Valentine's day is Tuesday.
I told Jamal to be my valentine.
I really do like him, I think.
But I don't want a boyfriend, so even if he liked me back, I'm wasting my time.
I was thinking last night and I realized that I'm scared of any kind of commitment. I don't want to get close to anybody that I'm not already close to. I lost Tanner. I lost RJ. I lost Morgan. People I thought I'd always be friends with. Every girl I hung out with in middle school. Lost them too.
I was supposed to hang out with Lindsay last Saturday. She ditched me. Then I remembered why I can't stand girls.
Broderick's gone. Lost him too.
I don't handle change well.
I'm going to the beach next weekend with Cici. I'm hoping to get my mind off things.
