Boy you got my heartbeat running away...

I always want what I can't have.

RM and MM.
Yeah.
I think BMS still likes MM. So it kind of sucks.
And of course, LO has RM wrapped around her fingers...
My phone broke so I haven't even talked to RM since Thursday.
Anyways.

Florida was amazing.
I'm obsessed. Its beautiful.

I mean, I've been there before, but this time, I really appreciated it.

Daytona is great. All the little shops. So cute.

I thought I had a lot to say, but I don't know.

My feelings are everywhere.

I've been thinking about the whole religion thing. I don't know where I stand with Jesus. I'm scared to rededicate myself because of what I'll have to realize.

So me and RM are going to be fbw's. I don't know why I agreed, but I did.
I think because now, I won't have to lose him to LO.
:(

This is so much on one person.
I can't stand it.
I have no one to talk to about it.

I had a horrible dream last night, that my mom found out.
I'm terrified of that happening.
I've got to stop this.