Craziest Fourth of July EVER.

So MM told me he loved me, like love-loved me.
I told him I liked him too, and I think I'm leading him on now.. I feel HORRIBLE.

Especially becasue after me and RM got in a big fight and then I forgave him, we kissed.
We fucking kissed.
While fireworks were going off.
Oh. My. Gosh.
I cannot believe I did it.

Even though it was planned.

I knew it was going to happen.

But I didn't think it'd feel like this.

He had his arm around me, and tried holding my hand.

And when I left, he gave me a big, tight hug.

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What if MM found out?
I don't know what I'd do.
I'd probably lose him as a friend forever.
I feel horrible.