I always told myself to never give up,
and I didn't. For a long time.
But I guess when I realized that it had been over a year, I decided it wasn't worth it.
Thats when I finally just let myself cry.
It was the first and only time I ever cried over you.
Before then, I couldn't cry over you.
How could you cry over someone who constantly made you so happy?
Who constantly led you to do the right thing?
Who constantly had your back?
But I guess all the wait finally got to me-- I cried for hours straight.
And now I have every reason to be jumping for joy.
I dreamed of this day.
The day you'd finally tell me you liked me.
I never thought it'd be like this.
I never thought I would have moved on.
And if I had, I thought I'd be able to let go and go back to you,
because its what I wanted for so long.
But now, I've found a new adventure.
I'm enjoying myself, being a rebel.
It scares me to think about what would happen if I did go back to you.
I know the truth- I'm just too scared to admit it to myself.
I would cheat on you.
I don't know who I am anymore.
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