So, about half those letters I wrote last time don't even make sense any more. I should rewrite them.
Dear Guy Best Friend,
I think you really are my best friend. You know everything about The Secret, and you are the only one who didn't judge me (other than those we were involved in it, of course). You are truly one of the most inspiring people I know. You are always thinking of other people, and you always know the right things to say. I'm so glad I have you. I've done some pretty hurtful things in the past, but I'm so happy we could get past that and move on. We are so close now, and I hope that never changes.
I'm really sorry about what happened with the girlfriend. Even though last Monday, I was wishing for this. I hate seeing you so broken. I hope I never made you this way. iloveyou. <3
Dear "The Secret" Guy,
Sorry for blowing up on you yesterday.
Its just that this whole thing has really gotten to me. It sucks.
We've been friends for so long, I hope that my bitch fit didn't change anything.
I'm sorry, I really am.
And also, people are finding out. I swear I didn't tell. :/ Please, please oh please don't hate me.
Dear Old Best Guy Friend,
Wow.
So I'm started to think we BOTH changed. You were such a jerk today, and yesterday. What is going on? I mean I understand that MAYBE you weren't as over me as I thought you were, and I hate myself for that. But you put me through hell, too, for a year, if I must remind you again. I just wish me and you could go back to how we used to be. When we would sit on Skype for hours at a time, and you'd listen to me complain about my problems, and you'd tease me for making funny faces. I miss that. I miss crushing on you. It was such an innocent love. I'll never ever ever get that again...
Dear Boyfriend,
You're great. Thanks for not judging.
Thats all.
I knew it would come, I knew people would eventually start calling me names, like 'whore'. But I didn't think I'd care. But I do. A whole hell of a lot more than I thought I would.
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