maybe, just maybe..



I had a good day.

Nothing special happened,

but nothing bad happened either.

And with the way things have been,

That makes today a good day.

I'm hoping this is a sign.

A sign that things are going to slowly start getting better.

I'm beyond excited about summer.

I know its going to be great.

I won't have to worry about everyone,

or what they think.
I can just lean back and enjoy myself.

Its Wednesday.
Next Thursday is the last day of school.

That means only six more days,

and one weekend.

I'm thrilled.

I'm looking forward to going to Disney World.

It will be me and my parents and my sister.

It will be great.

Church and Mi Rancho tonight.

I hope I get a chance to talk to TM again.

We talked last week, but it didn't change anything.

I texted him last night.

I told him I missed him. I said I missed Skyping

with him, I missed arguing with him,

and tons of other things.

I meant it,

but I don't think he realizes how important to me he is, or was.

I don't even know anymore.

Anyways, I tried sitting with them at lunch,

but changed my mind. Its pointless.

They don't talk to me.

They used to want me there.

He started saying that my text "meant nothing".

He doesn't understand me any more.

ihatethat.

We'll never be as close as we used to be.

You never know what you have until its gone,

or, of course, unless its the only thing you have left.

(MM)