So, whatever.



Wow, I have so much to talk about today.

Lets start with school yesterday.

It was the last Friday of eighth grade,

of middle school.

We didn't do much. We had a cookout,

and we also got our yearbooks.

LO signed her name.

RM's letter thing was nice. <3

So was TM.

TE said pretty much implied that he misses being friends.

We had a guest speaker for science,

the whole team met up to listen.

RM sat next to me, but he was teasingly mad at me,

and stood up at the end of our table.

LO got up and stood by him, and didn't sit down until he did.

Shocker.

She said she was "getting a better view". Uhhuhhh.

Then at the cookout, she claimed that Ass Like That was her theme song.

To RM.

Back off, bitch.

Me, LO, and NP were the only Gb girls at the party.

RM, CN, TB, TE, CP, and JF were the only Gb boys.

The rest were Rs.

They have cute boys....

Anyways when TE first saw me, he was shocked.

I knew it'd be awkward.

He went, "Ohhh!" And pointed at me, smiling.

I did the same, grinning back.

Before LO and NP got there, I was talking to RM about LO.

He knew I didn't like her. I explained that I think

she still likes him.

And so they flirted once she got there.

I tried to not care, but I was incredibly jealous.

He said CW was his best best friend,

but that LO was his best friend.

Ugh. What am I..? Just the girl he can "get some ass" from.

My mind keeps rushing back to the day he asked me out.

I was on the phone with MP and she told me that

CN had told her that RM told him that he was only dating me

to "get some ass". Ughh. I want to mention it to him,

because its terrifying me. I'm just scared of his response...

A lot of people were dancing (grinding).

RM wanted to dance with me, and he kept trying.

If it was anybody else, I would have.

It was just weird, the way he danced. Hes so tall,

I knew I wouldn't be any good.

So I just kept saying I didn't want to.

He didn't want to do what I wanted to do (kiss),

so I wasn't giong to do what he wanted.

I met CC. I think hes really cute.

He kept putting his arm around my waist,

and kept trying to dance with me.

I really wanted to, but I knew it'd be a bitchy move.

When RM went to the bathroom, I just looked at him and smiled.

He asked if I wanted to dance,

and I stopped for a second and then I just said no.

He said he could tell I really wanted to,

and so I laughed and said he was right.

He took my out to where everyone was dancing,

but I turned away. I couldn't dance with him.

I'd feel like such a bitch.

It was incredibly tempting, though.

LO was cussing all night.

And just not acting like herself.

She's become a whore.

She was trying to tell me how to dance.

I wanted to look at her and just say,

"After you teach my how to dance,

I could teach you how to **** a **"

But I caught myself.

When we were outside waiting for our ride,

RM was talking to a few girls (and guys).

JF and CF were being jerks about it to me.

I just kept saying I didn't care.

I honestly didn't think he was "hitting on them" or whatever.

CF looked at me and mocked me and said, "Oh, I don't care

because all I want to do is make out with him."

I wanted to cry and slap him in the face all at once.

I'm so sick of him.

On Facebook earlier, I had this short conversation with TE:

"What did you and RM do?"
"Last night?"

"Yeah."

"We made out. Thats it."

"Whatever."
"Okay?"

I miss being friends with him.

I don't know what happened.

I was supposed to Skype RM and CN last night,

but he didn't say anything about it.

Probably on xbox with LO.

Gosh... :/

We only have four more days left of school.

I told Tate. He knows now.

Its so strange.